Saturday, December 24, 2005

I have really horrible insomnia, and it's strange that inspiration always knocks on the door of my mind around this time, so here's a poem for you from the one and only Faith. Heh. Enjoy! :) Oh, and have yourself a merry little christmas! ;D

Title: I Scratch You Out

I think of
___
Even when I’m still on the phone with
___.
The unrequited, unanswered, unreturned
Feelings.
I scratch ___ out.
I scrape, I scuff, I scar, I scour ___ out.
How to run from
These thoughts
How to stop
Thinking
If only ___
could teach me how ___ do it.

How to not
Smile when ___ pass
How to not
Wait like crazy for ___ calls
How to not
Blush when the phone rings
And it’s ___.
How to not
Feel the insistence to
Reply to ___ messages.
How to not
See ____ striking beauty
Despite ____ perfect flaws,
How to not
Want more,
How to not
Feel the sting of the sores.

The things I say
When I say
I don’t care.
In others words,
I _____________________________
I _____________________________.
When I fall silent
I wish _________________________
If only ___ could
Know
I am not silent.
In other words,
My heart ______________________
My heart ______________________
My heart ______________________.

And ___ will never know,
That I have been lying to ___.
The confessional secrets,
The obsequious fondness
In the lies in the facts I state,
The truths in the words unsaid,
The strangle, the smother, the stifle
In the tangles made unclaimed.
And ___ will never know,
When I say _______________________,
In other words,
I ________________________________
I ________________________________
I ________________________________
I ________________________________.

I scratch ___ out.

40 comments:

Miao said...

LOL. Are you in love with _____?

Anonymous said...

great poem!!

-weiqi

Anonymous said...

FAITH IS IN LOVE WITH ME!! HAHA... LAME :P
have fun in ShangHai!

ur fiancee

qt said...

fantastic!

qt said...

MIAO YU, GO AND DIE. U'RE BORING

Miao said...

o.O

Miao said...

For your information I admit that I'm a very boring person. But I don't think I know you very well.

Anonymous said...

wah lau weilian yu r damn anal lar, ppl wana blog bout narnia cannot izit. @ least i tink tts y yu suddenly aimed such a boliao remark at a total stranger

Anonymous said...

or is she a total stranger to yu? she oredi sed she duzzen noe yu veh well liao

Anonymous said...

@.@
who's anon... why are u writing in such a weird way... dotx... and it sounds disgusting too... paiseh... cus i think 'anal' sounds erhum.. no offence
haix...

oh well..

~simin

Anonymous said...

plz lar simin, dun yu tink weilian is bein damn boliao here, juz cos shes a x'tian she goes ard advocatin d religion, when ppl xpress views agst x'tianity den she starts barkin..... fyi i read all d links on faith's blog, n im sum1 yu noe, i personally cnt stand d way weilian promotes her religion, n i dunnoe miaoyu personally, juz tink her entry on narnia is fine, tho i GUESS it's d entry tt ignited such a strong reactn frm wl

Anonymous said...

who are u anon? can u pls dun be anon... i dun wanna talk to someone tt doesn't exist..
and what made u think that she wrote tt because of religion? i think u're just dragging the thing too far off... it has got nthing to do with religion... trust me..
so if u don't know anything... pls don't give such strong comments... thank u...

~simin

qt said...

anon, dare to tell me your name? and ya, wad makes u think i said that miao yu's boring cause of narnia? i didnt even noe she mentioned anything about narnia? btw, i dun read her blog.. and i said she's boring cause of the endless comments she makes abt herself in faith's blog.. i mean it's faith's blog.. and if u would read all of miao yu's comments, u could see that everything is about herself, for example like 'this entry reminds me of wadever that happened to me last time' and if u read my blog, and hates my way of talking about christianity, den y dun u tag there? instead of here. and pls. if u want to make ur views known or insult me, tell me your name! at least i didnt hide my identity when i insult miao yu. u are a coward, anon. and btw, u are really a very free person. nth much to do with ur time ah? read every link in faith's blog. she got so many link lorx!! whao, get a life man!!

qt said...

stop guessing lah, anon. u think u noe me very well issit. GUESS that i aimed such a remark at miao yu cox if narnia? haha. and y wld i do that? to tell everyone of u the truth, i asked her to go and die cox i was plain bored and felt like letting off steam and the way she leaves comments in faith's blog realli pisses me off as it's all abt herself. and of course faith isnt in love with____. it's just a poem! and well, maybe it's just a joke from miao yu, i do not know. and anyway, u have sth againsr me ah? or are u secretly in love with miao yu? reacting in such a strong way. u remain anonymous cause u're scared of me? or do u prefer to remain a secret admirer of someone whom i commented was boring? haha and the way u address me by nameis just to highlight to everyone that qt is weilian rite. in case ppl missed that out. and btw, u read every single link doesnt mean i read every single link. i have never read miao yu's blog b4. seriously, do u think i would read it if i think that she's boring? pls use ur brains next time if u want to insult me. dun GUESS and jump to conclusions. acting smart only makes u look dumb. and to maio yu, i was letting off steam the other time, and i'm sorry that u had unfortunatly became the object of my anger. my sincere apologies. i admit i shouldnt have passed such an offensive comment to u. i'm sorry.

qt said...

anon, i would just like to ask u a question. are u ee hui? if u are, just admit it. and i will let u off. u need not admit here. if u dun want ppl to noe, u can just sms and tell me.

Miao said...

To qt:

It's alright lah :) And my comment about Faith's poem was just a joke, LOL >.<

And I do admit that I'm very egocentric. Tehehe. I'll try not to do it so often.

Miao said...

To qt:

And I don't remember having made any comment about myself on Faith's blog of late o.O

And to anonymous, personally I can't stand your typing style either.

Anonymous said...

oh plz lar WL, stop critisizing me wen yu yurself critisized sum1 who hasnt even vaguely offended u in any way.... lettin off steam n ventin yur frustrations on a stranger is juz so IMMATURE n UNREASONABLE. so wad if she has written bout hrself yar? it shows tt faith's entries r THOUGHT-PROVOKIN tts y they made her reminisce.... n plz lar, i've bn readin faith's blog often enough to noe tht miaoyu hasnt written anithg bout herself in AGES oredi.... n obviously yu dun haf a sense of humor lar, cnt ppl make comments w/o yur criticism... who r yu to make noise wen faith herself dint even complain! so pro go n be director of censorship board lar....

Anonymous said...

n no... i'm not secretly in luv w/ miaoyu... i can tell yu veh honestly tt ive nvr liked yu rite frm d start... n seeing yu attack others fer no apparent reason juz makes me dislike yu even more... n since yu can critisize other ppl on faith's blog y cnt i critisize yu on faith's blog as well?

Anonymous said...

n to miaoyu, hello, yu shuld b on my side since wl has critisized yu unfairly lor... wah lau how can yu turn tables agst me n critisize my typing style instd... can u n qt stop bein so anal, qt especially!

Anonymous said...

miaoyu is anal bout spellin n qt is anal bout everi lil thing! y is everibody so anal these days.... darn

Anonymous said...

O.o
we're having a cross fire here... haix..

~estel

Anonymous said...

i'm nt anal!!! what is anal anyway... omg... just sounds obscene
dotta

~estel

Miao said...

Eh anonymous can you just stop this crap?

Faith I suggest you delete all these comments. Your blog has become a rubbish chute.

Anonymous said...

btw i 4got to mention tt im NOT eehui.... plz dun get d impression tt eehui is d onli person hu dislikes u

Anonymous said...

hurhur... u make it sound like u're ee hui
o.O and u make it sound like u seem to know ee hui dislikes qt too.. are u her close friend or smthing? u seem to understand her alot huh...
anyway, u seem to enjoy playing mr/ms anonymous...and u seem to love to assume about alot of things too.. have fun though...

~estel

Anonymous said...

simin, isnt it obvious tt eehui dislikes qt?? if nt y wuld qt even TINK tt eehui is d one hu left those comments?? obviously qt oso noes tt eehui duzzen like her lar, DUH. common sense wuld tell u tt eehui duzzen like qt, yu dun haf to be close to eehui to actuallie noe. n i nv sed i was eehui, did i? yu all wana mistake me fer her, there isnt anithg i can do

Anonymous said...

n to miaoyu.... d business b/n yu n qt is now settled... but d business b/n qt n i isnt... so dun interrupt n tell mi to stop my crap! r yu realli so gullible as to believe tt qt is sincere bout bein sorrie...

qt said...

faith, i'm really sorry that ur blog has became a ground for some anon ppl to puke crap. haa. dun kill me!!
miao yu, i'm thankful that u've accepted my apology. :)
simin, thank u for standing up for me. u noe as clearly wad exactly happened in the beginning as me and faith. frens forever!!
anon,go away. i'm sure u do not noe faith personally. and her blog isnt a place for us to settle dispute. come my blog for a showdown man!! haha. if u dare...

Anonymous said...

catfight!

simin said...

anon... u came here on ur own accord & starting makin a big fuss over something so trivial... if it's ur personal business b.w u & qt den go settle it face to face, u don't have to go one big round, use miaoyu as reason to start a argument here, and then u tried to act like u're standing up for justice... i wonder what's ur real motive anyway.. such a hypocrite... aren't u aware that u're getting very much annoying, & worse of all, u are being very cowardly & irresponsible, hiding behind e name of anonymous, insulting anyone that goes against you for no apparent reason, assuming that u know alot of things that is happening here, trying to sow discord b.w miaoyu and qt... just what are u trying to show? that qt is bad? or are u trying to tell everyone reading this blog that u are petty/cowardly/evil/manipulative? who are u to judge whether people are sincere or not? at least qt has the sincerity & bravery to admit & apologise for her mistakes and miaoyu has the magnamity to accept it..
and i'm so amused that u actually called ur own words/actions crap... and i think they are too...

Miao said...

To anonymous:

qt has apologized, and I don't see any point in pursuing this matter any further. Besides she's right about the fact that I tend to leave others with the impression that I'm egocentric. So please stop harping on this issue, because I seriously don't understand gibberish. Thank you.

Godwin said...

ah the joys of the internet. having fun people?

estelwen said...

*nods head vigoursly*
FAITH ARH!! WHEN U COMING BACK?
GROWLSSSS
hahahaha

Faith said...

Er hem...

Start your own blogs and let me set up a fan club for all of you.

Anon, who on earth are you? I worship your hilarity. And do let me take the chance to thank you for reading my blog. :)

However, I am very much human and in love with Wei Lian and Si Min. Forgive the innocent bystander watching this whole entire crossfire and laughing so hard my stomach hurts now.

And Miao Yu... poor thing. She is the object of cannabalism to the point of hysterical absurdity. Damn funny lar. I am so so sorry Miao, for all your abuse.

You guys rawk.

And you don't even know it.

Ha ha.

Cheers, darlings.

Love,
Faith

Miao said...

LOL it's alright xD

People with bad spelling never fail to amuse me.

qt said...

yea,godwin, i'm having lotsa fun here. hah. it's been a while since faith's blog is so 'interactive' haha

Anonymous said...

HI IM JUZ HERE FER D LAST TYM TO TELL EVERIONE TT QT SUX. BIG TYM!

Anonymous said...

ANON SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LEAVE QT ALONE WILL U? WHAT"S UR PROBLEM HUH? U DUN HAVE CHILDHOOD ARH?
~simin

Faith said...

My dearest dearest Anonymous, you truly do make me laugh.

You told QT, "yu suddenly aimed such a boliao remark".

Pot calling the kettle black?

Ha ha.

Insulting others will not make you a better person. Saying that QT sucks will not make you suck less. I'm sure you're sensible and mature enough to know that, and to know that this making-a-mountain-out-of-a-molehill issue is senseless and should be ceased at once.

I've had a lot of fun and wonderful amusement reading what you wrote. Thank you. :)

But it ends here, right now.

Any new comments for this entry will be deleted.

Cya. :)

Love,
Faith.

PS: Actually everybody knows that QT sucks, so what you said is no biggie news. In fact, I believe virtually anybody with a mouth has that oh so natural and wonderfully miraculous talent that QT possesses. Now now. I know her sucking abilities seems so much more highly succulent and powerful than yours. Haha. But honey, don't be jealous. :P