Saturday, June 10, 2006

People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within.

-Ramona L. Anderson


What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in actual and intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great person is one who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Was searching for motivational quotes. I do that when I'm excessively bored, but without the right to be so. Anyway, notice how it is always the last line that expounds upon us the magnitude of the whole point? Good for GP. Tehehe.

The past two weeks have been a crazy ordeal. Draw draw draw, paint paint paint, busy busy busy little bumble bee... I sleep up to 4 hours a day or sometimes I just don't sleep at all. What else is new? I can't seem to find the time to study for my other subjects and I am starting to panick and worry a lot. I know I won't die if I were to fail my Mid Year exams, but I would be greatly and sorely disappointed with myself, because I know who I am and I also know what I am capable of achieving. On top of that, I am addicted to reading stories online and I simply cannot stop! Am currently engrossed with reading To The Lighthouse by Virginia Woolf, short plays, and am doing other irrelevant stuff as well. I hope everything somehow just works out for the all time Queen of Procrastination. :/ What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger isn't it?

I realize I am very blessed to have as many friends as I have now. Most of my friendships are drawn on my own terms which my friends all seem to accept readily as normal when really, it isn't. I may or may not reply to your messages. I send out of the blue messages like ":)" or "look at the moon" simply because I feel like it. I do not respond to missed calls. In fact, I will never or I will rarely call you. You don't get to go out with me much because I'm dead in the afternoon or just lazy or absolutely busy and am only revived and relaxed at night when you are already asleep. Even when you do get to go out with me, I am usually late because I overslept or lost my way. We absolutely cannot watch horror movies. I don't like to shop. I could be stuck in a bookshop for hours and I would expect you to somehow amuse yourself until I am finished. What's even worse is that you have to accept my split personality disorder- I can be extremely philosophical, pensive and quiet or I can be extremely talkative, over-friendly, and do completely outrageous stuff. Haha... On hindsight, I really am horrid and unbearably eccentric. Thank you, you reading this. :)

But that aside, for those people who survive all of that, you can be assured of my complete acceptance and loyalty. Oh dear, that sounds like some self-advertisement. :P But really, once you are my friend, you are my friend for life. I don't let friends down deliberately. I spend a lot of time nurturing and salvaging friendships. I am always sweet, honest, generous, forgiving, and very very, very crappy, and more importantly, I will always be there for you when you need me.

8 comments:

siti* said...

i think if i was a psychiatrist reading ur entry, i'ld probably send u to an asylum like IMMEDIATELY..

oh, and if i've never said it before-
thanks for being such a super duper warped friend.. i'll probably tell my future kids and grandkids about you..

take care XD

Miao said...

I don't like to shop. I could be stuck in a bookshop for hours and I would expect you to somehow amuse yourself until I am finished. What's even worse is that you have to accept my split personality disorder- I can be extremely philosophical, pensive and quiet or I can be extremely talkative, over-friendly, and do completely outrageous stuff.

Let's go out. :D

Faith said...

tehehe...

minis said...

hmmmmm.... very sweet????
REALLY????????
hahahahaha
XD

Faith said...

oh come on. aren't i sweet to you, you of all people. >_<

QM-pest said...

LOLX....Haha.Do you know that I can stay at kino orchard for the whole day till closing time?(I have done that quite a few times already) And dont worry,I have split personality too.Haha.Thanks for being my friend.You rawk my life man.I was SOooo blind last year...XD

Sylvia said...

...i want to stay at kinooo for 24 hours until they lock me in and security drags me out x) because there i can give (albeit a lousy one) an excuse to not face my studying and READ READ READ. i haven't caught up with reading in ages.

did you know that i am obsessed with FLIPPING pages of a book and that's one of the reasons why i love reading? i sound like some weirdo o_O

there's something i'm curious about. why do you not reply messages sometimes?

I like sending messages like --> :)
it's amusing how i sent one to pest and she replied me with a longer message of how she fell down xDDDD

ps i replied your comment in my blog (: glad you liked the photo.
have a good night !

i haven't been studying :(

Faith said...

Because I do not know what to say. Because I know what to say but do not know if I should say it. Because I am tired. Because I forget. Because... ... There are many reasons, none of them truly malicious. :)