The Farewell Assembly for the J2s yesterday closed yet another chapter of my life and marked the beginning of a new one. I'm sure everyone here pretty much feels the same way? Thing is, I didn't feel anything at all. Amidst all the embraces, tears, laughter, joy, camera flashes eager to capture the last bright happy faces, and the rambles of reminiscing, there was only one question in my mind, "Why now?" All these talk about saying goodbye, all these promises of keeping in touch... It amuses me to some degree that we have to set a definite and official date to unleash our true (if it is true) feelings and emotions; that we have to be reminded by others, clearly and precisely, of the coming end of things, in order to prepare for it and provoke ourselves towards internal reflections. I received cards and notes and gifts from my lovely lovely friends, which made me feel very very loved and cherished. But it also made me wonder why they (and why I) didn't say it earlier, and if it would have made any difference in our friendships at all.
I guess it's the same concept as believing that Valentine's Day should be celebrated every day, and that all that kissing and hugging shouldn't be hidden and restrained so that it only explodes deliberately on one single special day, before withdrawing and dissipating for another long stretch of time. And the worse thing is, because 'everybody is doing it', your heartfelt sentiments are glossed over with hypocritical camaraderie. Everybody suddenly loves everybody!
Things like these should be free and spontaneous, completely irrespective of the time and date. When the whole school is in the mood for the evocation of memories, alongside the emotional downpour of expressions and best wishes, I get the feeling that the 'atmosphere' must have gotten to our heads and everything just feels a little bit fake. I take too many photos and my lips start to ache from having to smile so much. Haha. But I'm not saying that it's a bad thing!
In any case, I really don't believe in saying goodbye permernantly to the people I love. Between friends who are true to each other, there is no such thing as a determinating "farewell". We'll make it a point to stick together through thick and thin, and see each other from time to time, maybe even after death. Tehehe.