Do you know what it means to
feel the weight of the world, trembling shut in the interior of your bones,
all ferocity of fear, all pangs of panic plunging, hot and cold hot and cold,
little by little, to dig to eat into your insides, to excavate your brain your heart,
little by little, to claw to cut to rip to slit to tear to shreds your body your soul,

to beg to plead to weep to scream silent screams to lose to know there is no use.