Friday, January 27, 2006


Title: I Will Walk

Hanging by a threat,
A breaking grey streak,
A curled rotting fingertip,
Altruistic hedonism
Smeared across diminutive eyes,
Bottomless into shallow words,
Shallow into bottomless needs,
Scrambling yet, blinded, scrambling gaps.
A toe, a touch, that tiny tint--
All I need to achieve the screech.
Somewhere in between misty dreams,
All I will heed is noiseless noises,
As I walk away from this frenzy,
My head empty, my heart bled dry.
Uncovered and unashamed I walk.
I walk slowly, spontaneous steps,
I walk slowly, feel the rush twirl,
I walk I walk I walk on death on darkness on hell’s dungeons,
I walk I walk I walk on seas on air on clouds on heavens,
I will walk until I reach the end of no end,
I will walk until I see You there,
I will walk until I see You smiling at me,
Your hands outstretched to receive me,
And You will say,
“I have been waiting for you.
I have always been.”

And I will know,
This is where I have always wanted to be.


I have this little philosophy I've always believed in. It's a little cheesy, but I'll just write it down:

For every person who misunderstands me,
I appreciate better those who understands me.
For every person who wrongs me,
I appreciate better those who rights me.
For every person who hates me,
I appreciate better those who loves me.
For every person who neglects me,
I appreciate better those who cares for me.
For every person who shuns me for who I am,
I appreciate better those who accepts me for who I am.
For every person who holds on to the wrongs of my past,
I appreciate better those who holds on to the rights of my present.
For every person who insults me,
I appreciate better those who praises me.
For every person who believes there is nothing left in me,
I appreciate better those who believes how much potential there is in me.
For every person who walks out on me,
I appreciate better those who never walks out on me.
For every person who will never forgive me,
I appreciate better those who will always forgive me.


And because of this, there is no longer any reason to hold any grudge or anger against anybody. I will try to thank them. I will try to forgive them.

And because of this, there is more reason than there ever was before, to observe more carefully and notice those around me for who they are and what they have done for me.

And because of this, there is more reason to care, to love, to be kind, to comfort, to share, to be greatful, to thank, to forgive, to accept, to nurture.

Because a single word, a single action, a single look, a single smile, is enough to make all the difference and impact the life of another. Do you know the power you have? Do you know that it can transform you as much as it can transform another person? Do you know that it can destroy you as much as it can destroy another person? Do you know that we are all human, no matter how you try to hide this, that we are all the same deep inside? We want the same things in life. We want the same things from other people. How would you feel if you were the one abused instead of the one who abuses? Or do you always stand apart, distant, just watching? How cruel. How apathetic. How selfish.

I really wish you could understand this.

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5 comments:

estelwen said...

hohoho... what can i say?
i realised that to forgive means alot then just to say i forgive that bastard...
and i just realised i can't do it too...
maybe it's because it's the first time i've much such a person that i'm just exploring the feelings of hurt, betrayal, forgiveness plus a whole of emotions that confuses me alot...
after thinking through... i just realised that my mentality does nt have this capacity to forgive him...
and i suddenly love the colour of grey....

Faith said...

haha. forgiveness can't possibly be so instant that you just have to blink and its done. it takes time. definitely. have fun in malaysia!

Anonymous said...

lol thanks!
i'll miss u!
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estelwen

vk (: said...

this is kind of out of point from your entry, but i just wanted to wish you a happy chinese new year (:

er, well.. happy chinese new year! :D
enjoy the hols (:

Faith said...

haha... thanks! :) you too!